Why does everyone insist on bugging me when I’m stressed and busy? Then yell and get angry at me for being so bitchy. People need to learn to stop thinking that I should be happy 24/7.
If anyone has every taken a subway ride in the city, you would know how crazy people are and the crap they do. We all tolerate to an extent but today was a whole different experience that was literally in my face. Now I should warn you that there will be cursing and there will be a tad of feminist belief derived from this. If you are offended by either, please remove yourself from reading further. Also note that I am paraphrasing.
I was on my way home with my cousin and as we were waiting for the train, I’ve noticed these morons (one asshole of middle age and another much younger) just beating each other up and play fighting on the middle of the platform. As the train approach, I’ve quickly glance to their directions (mistake to look in the direction of morons) to decide which car had more seats. As we decided to take the car away from these idiots, the older asshole decided just shout out “Hey look at those asian girls there” and my cousin, being the defensive person she is said “FUCK YOU!”
As we had entered into our separate cars, these morons waited through the emergency doors and went up to my cousin as we were sitting and said “It was you who said something to me wasn’t it?” Without hesitation, she snapped back “Yeh, it was and what are you going to do about it?”
“What did you say to me?”
“I said ‘Fuck you’”
“Now, I don’t understand why you would say something like that to me. Is it because I’m black?”
“‘No you are not! Obviously, you need to look at the mirror because you aren’t black and I’m not racist. I wouldn’t say fuck you to someone who was black because I’m respectful but you deserved it.”
“You know that I have blond hair and blue eyes. I’m superior to you so I don’t understand why you would say this to me.”
As he walks towards the front of the car, he continues to speak to his younger counterpart as I was telling my cousin that she should just ignore him. She responded by saying that she wasn’t going to take shit from idiots like these anymore and I told her that there was a kid here. I didn’t think this was appropriate to be arguing about in front of a child which she agreed was not good since she failed to notice the child across the seat.
Minutes later, as the two guys continue to banter with each other the older guy approached my cousin again. This time, a new audience joined us to watch, not knowing the context behind the argument minutes before.
“I was just talking to my friend here and we agreed that it took guts to stand up to me and say what you did. I admit that it was a bit strong and I still don’t understand why you said that but I respect that”
She responded saying, “You said ‘hey look at those little asian girls over there’ so I told you to fuck you”
“Oh, I don’t remember saying that but I think you’re cute and we should go out”
“I don’t think so! You said you were superior to me and I rather you say fuck you back to me than pay me a compliment”
He walks back to his other idiotic friend and goes “Can you believe these chick, I pay her a compliment and she does this shit”
I told my cousin that I think it would be best to ignore these people because it isn’t worth the energy or time to argue with them. They would obviously never wrap it around their brains how wrong or stupid they are. I was however proud that my cousin always was the one to stand up for herself especially as a woman because if I were in such a position, I would not waste a breathe on such a worthless piece of shit.
There’s a lot of shit that people put up with on a daily basis. Especially in New York with all the crazy but if you are crazy and don’t bother anyone then I don’t care. Once you start to attack an individual for whatever reason, you need help! Even the bum sitting at the end of the train car just looked at this guy like he was such an idiot. This was the first time where my cousin caused a scene and I felt that people were on her side looking at this ignorant man in disgust. What had started out as a purely stupid ignorant comment turned into an insult to women. This jerk definitely hit all the low marks of society’s shit class.
I’m appalled at the way society still treat women, why do we have to walk around and take shit from men. To be degraded on a daily basis to objects of affections rather than human beings. We are the majority here yet we still have to walk around with our heads down! I wear pants and sneakers because they are comfortable but also because I don’t want draw attention to myself. There are women out there that wear high heels and short skirts everyday. We called them sluts but honestly some of them aren’t. They may just like to feel beautiful in those outfits and I think that it’s amazing that they can walk out everyday dressed so put together and hold their head high to all the judgment from every which side. I don’t think that any of this will change any time soon though. My friend once said that she wish she was guy because it’s so much easier. Even though it’s tough being a girl in society, I wouldn’t change it for the world.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”